June 17,2020

I jolted awake from sleep, to realize it's 5.40 am. I'm super late...

My Week

June 16

Starting my 2 nd week going to the office during the covid-19 mode.

June 15 - Took half day, went to see mak at Bukit Jelutong. Mak ngadu sakit tengkuk, doc suspek spine problem. Kalau nak check further, kena buat xray. Mak tak boleh toleh kiri/kanan.

June 16 - Did the work on Site Health improvement plans (boooring), layankan tfs update pbi and task untuk team members (waste of time), layan email, siapkan kerja on the documentation. What a boring day. Balik at 5.45 pm (tidur dalam bas, check ig sikit), call up husband to pick up kat palm mall bus stand. Had dinner, pajeri terung, sambal kentang..yang lain semua panas lauk semalam. The girls went to nawarra's house. K ria depa pi jemput around 2pm. Balik rumah dah lapar, tak sabar nak makan. Yep..my kids are big eater. tak yah risau susah nak makan.

Gambar buat kenangan

My lonely Phd Journey

Assalamualaikum...

Some sweats fell discreetly, while the kids were busy with their own imaginary thoughts that punctuated every pause. I'm sitting at the corner which I considered my home office. Trying hard to find the moment of solace to write and finish my journal. It's indeed a lonely journey. It's been 5 years, the progress is super slow. In fact, with ever-demanding work at the office, and the covid 19 situations, things get harder. No matter what, it should not be reasonings for me to progress.

Help me Allah... Tetapkan niatku

With my understanding supervisor ; Prod Dr Nor Hasni Osman, Dean STML school - UUM

During Proposal Defence, Oct 1, 2018

My Birthday on eid day during global pandemic

Knock on Doors

After the congregational solat raya at the small living area we own in the small town of Seremban, it just us primary family. As we are now going through a lockdown, no one allowed to cross the state/country and crowd gathering is not permissible.

Earlier in the morning, we had calming session, nothing to rush upon. We don't have to be ready for the group solat prayer at musolla/mosque. An yet, we enjoyed wearing the new outfits.

Some tears fell discreetly, while the kids were full silence that punctuated every pause. Sitting in the midst of souls sincerely seeking His love and contentment, my heart whispered fervently to be reunited with the family...one day.

The bombastic words and sentences were actually from a book "Nearness to You" written by Nur Fardhilah Wahid. Am trying to improve my writing skills by copying her arrangements of words.

MY first "official" vlog

As things get so intricately esp at work, the needing of doing above and beyond is necessary. The heedless opinion of people, the struggle of fitting people's needs are madness.

Well, then I thought, let's embrace change, be part of the crazy momento. And here I am with my first vlog .

And I so much realized, I'm so lack of new words.. listing down here to register on my memory

eloquent - well express
heedless - unmindful
intricate - complicated
surreal - bizarre
hit the nail on the head - do something or say something exactly right

doozie - something excellent, impressive
ephemeral - lasting for short time
gnawed - stick to ones minds
solace - peaceful
alchemy - chemistry
unraveled - investigate and solve or explain

Power quotes from Nearness to You by Nur FadhilahWahid.

"some nights after the idea of this book was conceived, i was jolted awake from sleep"

"A person cannot cross the distance of the inward and outward except with firm determination.
One who becomes lazy, incompetent, procrastinates, hardly will ever be able to accomplish a matter or acquire what he desires except if Allah wills it."

Imam Sayyid Abd Allah ibn Alawi al-Haddad.

Sharing again Nawfal's video