My day...my life..my precious: It's nearing to the end

The maternity cuti almost end...I must compile the life events before it's faded from the memory box. Masa maternity Nasuha tak berapa nak ingat what have I done, how did I went through the routine. What were the things I did with Nafiz Nawfal..rugi betul rasanya..So here are the significant ones which I want it to be remained as good memory during Nayla's time

Cultivate Business Mindset to the kids
- Did small business with kiddo as preparation plan for parents being unemployed due to O&G turmoil
- Jual jajan kat sekolah : Contoz (fast selling), jelly pudding, sour +

Mummy with Bento Set
- Informed bibik that I will do the bekalan for them. Sometimes this small thing means a lot to them. Somestimes the bibik will regularly fry the nugget and sosej to ease their early morning preparation. In fact, with hatred towards the naughtier ones they even get the burnt nugget...
Me as mommy pun ada rasa malas nak buat the bekalan lagi la bibik that has no family relation. Got to do it...must do it..even just bread and spread.
Nasuha keep getting sosej sebab dia kata nasuha suka..And I read the risk of eating processed meat..freak out and insaf la kejap. the first time I did, nasuha tak habis pun bekalan dia. Bagi macam2 kot, from the spagetthi, to hashbrown, to fries...And the bibik will try to make me feel I'm not a good cook. Kena sabaaar banyak2. The first bento set, according to bibikla..nasuha balik kelaparan sbb dia tak suka bekalan...sabar je....tak yah nak tension2.

Quality Chatting Time
Baru tersedar dalam igauan, selama ni cakap dgn anak sambil checking on handphone. Tak really pay attention..macam mana rupa budak ni sekarang, kenapa bertanda kat badan and things like that. So there was one time we were just talking and I share my own experience when I was at their age..how opah handle me..how lucky I am living with opah (fulltime mother). Nampak muka diorang sedih when I just teasing them..opah tak marah bila mak terkencing depan rumah bila balik sekolah ..sbb tak tahan punya pasal..kalau korang mesti dah kena marah dengan bibik..they just silent and look at me..dengan muka "why am I not lucky as you"..sedih ...Baru dapat tahu masa pegi camp, they had session pasal ibu bapa..Abg Fiz nangis, and being nawfal he will make sure his ego stance. The rest cried, and he just had red eye no teardrop...Mak nya yang dengar feel so sayu and i drop few tears...nampak nawfal pun macam nak nangis bila tengok mak dia nangis..tak berani nak pandang muka mak dia...
So I created family "pyjama night" where weekends they sleep together with us.. 6 of us (parents + 4 kids). Plus, I just bought new queen bed size..so double queen bed inside this room. They are happy, and subuh pun tak terlepas including my husband. Dia kena jadi imam to all of us, masa start dulu I asked my kid to become the imam (since depa pun dah sunat and hafal more surah than I am)..so lama2 hubby pun rasa tak sedap plak dia tidur while kami solat. So it has become a routine. Alhamdulillah

Sedekah jadi Amalan
One thing about mak, she is determined. Walaupun badan dah tak banyak kederat she will fulfill her niat even without others help. So one thing dia buat is make pulut kuning tanda lepas pantang. Hantar kat surau. Kebetulan anak pun dah jadi routine gi surau esp Khamis malam jumaat(free food and yummy). Depa tolong hantar the pulut to surau. Abahnya jarang...jarang..hehehe. So I told them let's make a practice to send foods to surau as sedekah.. This is the checklist I had on OneNote..The miracle is the next morning nak check bank account sbb dah semput mid month sekali duit mcm banyak2 beribu..pesal lak ni.. Cek details rupanya takaful etiqa hantar bonus ($5500). Yep this year I suppose to get the bonus.... nampak tak miracle..Allah nak bagi tang tang tu, and nak tarik pun tang tang tu.

Sedekah Surau - Khamis Malam Jumaat

Bubur lambuk - Apr 14
Air kordial laici susu - Apr 21
Apr 28 - lasagna
May 5 - shorba

Make a practice to plan your dreams, ibadah and small things
I feel satisfied , meaningful when I jot down a checklist. Selalu checklist ni buat untuk kerja office, so that I feel organized. Tapi sebenarnya checklist ni boleh tolong buat kita focus..kalau tak ke laut la. Lagi la kita yang iman senipis kulit bawang so I did my checklist..
Surah bacaan kena jugak aim, kalau targetless tu yang tak habis2 nak khatam quran..rasanya masa kecik lagi selalu khatam than dah tua ni.. Kejar sana sini tapi ibadah ntah ke mana. This is something yg gets into deeper soul...Allah makbul my doa, atur dengan baik.. 2 boys 2 girls... cantik aturannya. Even I wish very customized doa..nak anak pompuan, cantik alis matanya, bersih kulitnya etc..
Boleh tak Allah bagi semua...kenapa masih sombong dan bongkak dengan nikmat Allah.

First thing I practice is solat awal waktu, tunggu waktu solat...takkan nak buat lagu ni masa gi umrah aje, masa depan masjidilharam..balik negara sendiri dah lupa amalan ni...Lain rasanya..even i plan my day not by time but by the waktu masuk solat..example..I need to finish my cleaning before zuhur..after zuhur I will do something else..I will cook the kuih after I did my asar , so that I wont rush for it..etc. Rasa teratur dan bermaknya hidup ini..Subhanallah

So here are things which I want it to be remembered